I used to write about us. Our love. Our romance. The time we spent together. Our opinions about people and things. Our perceptions about life. Our expectations and focus.  What I wrote about, always came from the happenings of the time we spent in each others’ company. And then it all came to an end. I suddenly didn’t have enough to write about because I stopped seeing him. He yet is there as an important part of my life. We yet love each other the same, and he yet stands by me as the solid rock I can hold on to and rely upon unquestioningly. But now we both seem to have priorities. WORK, CAREER, SUCCESS. On any other day, I would have wanted him to work very hard at his workplace and attain great success in life. I would have wanted him to do so well in life that makes me all the more proud of being HIS girl. But then I realize that all these accomplishments in life come with a very high price. The price of not seeing each other for months in a row. The price of not talking enough to each other every night. The price that you unknowingly choose to sleep than talk how the day went because you are just left so fatigued after a long day. We never end up doing a cost benefit analysis, so as to say. We just inadvertently jump into this rat race. And then, a few years down the line wonder where all that love died down. The ominous love, for which we once fought our parents and the conventional society. The love that all those fairy tale books say help move mountains. And the love for which once I would have done anything, just to spend a few more moments on his side....

A new season of ‘Sach ka Saamna’ began a few days back. New people, new stories, and more importantly, new confessions. They all seem to be targeted at the contestants’ sexual affairs. ‘M’ tells me he would have gone for the show without any apprehensions. He says there is nothing in his life that he is ashamed of. Nothing that he regrets. He faces all that happened in his life with grace. He says there is nothing in his life that he has hidden from his family and me. Nothing that he needs to confess.



I comprehend closely all that he has to say. Since we started dating, I was always mind-bent on getting full access to all the social networking websites he had subscribed to, and all email-ids he owns. I also put down terms that I could access his phone on any given day, and have also earned the bad reputation of spying on all his female friends. In these slightly over two years of keeping a close eye on him, I can vouch for him. I can be sure that he has so far not hidden anything from me. I know all that he has had faced in his life. There are no secrets about him. But, I DO….


I look at all these contestants and wonder what would have really gone wrong with them that they would come up on this platform and supposedly confess truth, “because I want to rectify everything I have done in the past…” really…? By confessing the truth, are you really rectifying the past..? Yes, maybe you are making good money out of it, but at the cost of losing the trust, faith and love of your spouse and family… You would never rectify the past… In fact you are only devastating the future by confessing something that people around you are unaware of, and happy with otherwise. I somehow totally believe that any lie that keeps someone happy, is just not worth the truth. What seems worse is that you decide to humiliate yourself and your loved ones right before the world. You literally strip them off their self respect and like an animal, rape their self reputation on national television… Think about it... are the winnings really worth it….?